One step closer.

‎"the best month of fasting after ramadhan is the month of Allah - muharram" (sahih muslim)

Im fasting today yet feel exhausted.My stomach is crunching,barking for food and at the same time indicates for gastric to introduce over again but Im trying to wait until maghrib ahdzan.As I reached home after UNGS class,I took a nap right after performed a zuhur prayer and woke up at 3 pm.
I checked my phone.The feeling of wanting to text him was suddenly broached.Deep in my heart,I am really missing him but I just cant tell this to him.not too much.I know my limit.I even sometimes been wanting him to be always with me...I dont know how to put it in words but marriage is the best way to overcome this.but not to talk about marriage.its too early to discuss.what I can do is just need to sabr.pray together with the effort and relinquish everything to Him.Seriously,its hard for me to believe that I am reaching until this stage.I mean to open my heart for the one.for eternity as its hard for me to accept someone even for having a boyfriend.

You know when the first time I saw you in tuition class.It was 5 years back but I didnt have the opportunity to talk to you and later I quitted because I went to the other tuition classes.From that particular moment,I started to let everything went away and Im glad to meet you now.but I just have to be brave to face for any circumstances that might come later.

I have to be brave.yea.be brave..

Im planning to go out for a leisurely walk after asar prayer.let the mind feels free.