Number one for me.

Okay.this post is going to be a bit outspoken.not that outspoken but this post is going to be the first and the last to talk about.
well,I didnt say that I am perfect woman like anybody else.I am just being me.
I am trying to be good people like anyone else.there was at one point I felt like I was replying messages to the number of guys.I wasnt like that before.It wasnt my intention to entertain them but things kinda urge me to reply but I set up my mind that replying the messages shouldve no beyond the boundary.I replied because I respected them.I dont want people to call me snobbish or whatever..
again,for this time.I am sorry.I cant lie myself anymore.what I want is only ONE special  guy for me which is so called a husband.
roomate: wow.ramainya la orang dengan kak jannah ni.
jannah : hmm..tak best pun.jannah nak sorang je yang betul-betul serious.kadang-kadang rasa sedih.people datang and datang but what I want is only one person for me.tapi macam tak jumpa lagi.jannah tak nak ramai-ramai tu.perlu ke jannah layan message2 semua? 
roomate: urmm.tak perlu kot kalau tak de apa-apa..
jannah: yea.I know.. (tunduk sambil berfikir)
monolog dalaman
macam mana nak dapat laki yang tak layan perempuan kalau aku dok melayan orang.tapi aku bukan melayan.tapi macam as a friend.kadang-kadang bila ada yang datang,hati ni terusik.macam main tarik tali pun ada.dalam hati ni..Tuhan je yang tahu.
sebenarnya I just want the best for me.siapa yang tak nak dapat the best?
I just need someone who can be Imam for me.the one who can guide me to Jannah.If i fall down,he is the one who lift me up.
I will wait..

Bila.

It has been a week since we've been apart for over and over again.when you came back home I wasnt home.but I tried my best to allocate my time to meet you up a day before you went back to India  and there was something happened to you the day before you departed.do you remember? macam nak nangis kan? masa tu kakak kesian gila tengok awak and I decided to try other way to solve this problem.nasib baik manager tu ada rasa empathy towards you.sorry tak dapat ikut hantar awak balik..

I miss you.

Over and over again.

Setiap design yang kita buat adalah ilham daripada Allah.tak perlu berasa malu.sebaliknya berasa bangga dan bersyukur atas ketentuanNya.
Well,Ive deactivated my facebook due to some reasons.I dislike wasting time on facebook especially when I wanted to start doing assignments.What I did was opened up the facebook and nanti mula lah click satu link,lepas tu addicted.click lagi..next next and next..especially arcticles,feeds yang banyak gila (still sibuk nak scroll down baca),9GAG.apakah?
tutup jela akaun.

Up

gonna be more hardworking this time.yes i am.i am gonna be strong too.ameen.ameen.

Ardent.

I really admire people who work hard in everything they do especially seniors.I envy them.I feel like Im no worth taking architecture.I always been wanting to do my best as I could.I always been wanting to excel in designing.I always been wanting to get good marks like anyone else.
I need that spirit.
and thanks to seniors in particular and friends who advice me.ianya terkesan di hati saya. =)

Dream on.

I play squash lately.A place when I reminiscing myself of being an athlete during the previous time.I was known as putri sukan sekolah.I even had a dream of being an athlete when I was 11 years old until I neglected my studies.I'd been scolded by my father in soo many times.but somehow sports never fades away even I am not the 'real' athlete which I dreamt of. 

Regain spirit

I knew this wasnt the right thing that I supposed to be.I always miss things I did which is yang diredhai Allah.which is Allah suka whenever I feel like I am no longer being that way.mana pergi sikap yang tegas,yang tak mudah goyah? pergi usrah dulu tapi kenapa tak apply sekarang? Belajar,belajar jugak,busy,busy jugak tapi sebenarnya kita takde sebab nak cakap kita takde masa nak baca Al-Quran.I missed three days for not reciting  Al-Quran semata-mata hal duniawi until I felt the void in my heart.mungkin sebab itu I rasa tak okay,sedih lately ni.Alhamdulillah.after habis kelas semalam I sempat berjumpa dengan kakak usrah,kak raimi yang banyak bagi kata-kata semangat yang sangat useful for me.satu lagi,I shouldnt do something which is to please people but to please Allah.kalau Allah dah kata jangan,so janganlah buat something yang Dia tak suka.try jadi seorang Islam and I should proud for being in Islam.try jadi solehah kalau nak dapat suami yang soleh.Ingat Allah.Ingat Allah.Ingat mati.Ingat kehidupan di akhirat kita macam mana nanti..Ya Allah... ='(